Sleep is amazing. i slept for close to 12 hours today.intermittently.=D
Lifes often full of contradiction isn't it. Just when I felt like i was going to die from prelims and couldnt wait to get through it. Here i am, through it,enjoying my post-prelim days, only to realise the new hurdle ahead. But whatever it is, it feels good to be lying on my bed and not needing to have any urgent agenda on my mind=)
sera's bday was yest and we made this board titled
how many ways we love seraphina. her name in glittering silver and the rest of the board in pink, one of her fav colours! we pakat with xinjie and sprung out from the back of her classroom. In hwachong uni and she CRIEd and cried. silly girl! she was utterly touched i guess. i would have been if my good frens SPRUNG out from the back of the classroom one windy afternoon. and yes RJ was SO
bloody windy that no matter how we many times we lit the candle we couldn walk past more than 3 steps b4 all the candles were blown out by the wind. Ultimately, even the lighter gave up on us. and we had to make do with a cake beautifully decorated by candles, albeit the candle lights.
I am sad that my cameras spoilt and my photo collection has dwindled significantly!But not anymore, weilin has been secretly snapping around since july and she just sent me all the photos! muacks.
Anw. i think im a downright horrible person. Some days ago, as i was walking from dhoby ghaut to meridian to meet amy stacy and sheryl, an elderly lady approached me for some money. She wasnt shabbily dressed or anything close to that. She asked me for two bucks and with that, I asked her what she intended to do with that money. Her facial expression morphed into one showing displeasure immediately. I was in a hurry and said "sorry, no" before i rushed off! But as i left, i was totally remorseful. What the hell use of doing all those YC volunteering when THIS is the real situation! And i refused to give her any benefit of doubt?Crap.. As i finally reached the junction near meridian, I got stuck right in the centre unknowingly. I knew that i wouldn't spend the rest of the day happily if i didn't go back to look for her.
Right there, after the cars zoomed past me. I took off and ran back to her. There she was, approaching another passerby, just like me. And just like me he refused to give her the benefit of doubt and rejected her request.
There i motioned for her to come over. And i asked her what she wanted to do with the money. Again. She said she needed to eat.
"why are you here? Why dont you go home?"
Looking infuriated, she stormed off in a sulk.
I caught up.
"Auntie, i just want to help you. Why wont you go home? Its dangerous for you to be out here."
" Its so hot! I dont want to go home. I want to eat."
That was the ultimatum. I opened my wallet and gave her money before I urged her to return home soon.
She chided me for being naggy. But then again, I felt much better though she chided me.
I guess situations like this reveal one's real self. Its most accurate- no more hiding behind veneers and
pretending to be nice. I thus concluded. I
am a horrible person.
